My 26th Birthday / Holly Update
So here it is my 26th birthday, about 4:00 am. I think I am really starting to hate this whole birthday thing. It's not like I really do much for them. All that seems to happen is that I get older. Today I have to work early and have meetings @ 9 and 10 am. I will probably not do shit after work, I will get the normal random phone calls from family but that's about it. I always made Holly's birthdays a huge day because they meant so much to her, but me, I don't really care either way. I don't really get presents from anyone.. That hasn't happened for a long time, my parents ask me what I want every year but by the time my birthday comes, shit I have bought everything I have wanted for myself.( yeah, i know run-on)
I think what is really going to suck today is not having Holly around. In case you don't know, she has moved away as of Aug. 25th. To make it even worse her first day on the floor at the hospital is, you guessed it, on my birthday....today. I don't know how this is all going to work out, she doesn't either. The only thing I really do know is that I still love her, will probably love her for a while, and I miss her everyday. Mo-Ka' is taking this pretty hard as well. The morning Holly left she just would sit there looking at me. I finally got in her face and told her "Hey, it wasn't my fault, don't blame me...." but she still looked a little pissed,
so I kicked her down a big Milk bone and went on with the day.
I think the hardest thing is coming home to a empty
house, and just not having her there all the
time (though most of the time she was sleeping).
People are also always asking me, Where is Holly? I have to say,
oh she moved away, then they give me the look. This look is like a little
pitty mixed with shock. Then there is the follow-up question of "What are you
guys going to do?" or "Why didn't you go with her?" So here are my answers: I don't
what we are going todo, and I didn't go cause I have businesses here, and she didn't want me togo (like I would anyway, but I never asked) The bottom line is it's gonna be really hard for us to be together now, and for the future. I will try to do what I can, shit all I can, but I think there is only so much I can do. I think we both know what is going to happen, but we don't really want to think that way. I definitly don't want to! Let me just say that I love her, she makes me be a better person when she is near me, and I simply just miss her. I think my biggest fear is gonna be gettin used to not having her around. We were inseperable for the last 2 and half years. I really hope she and I don't get used to not being with one another, but I guess that life, right.....right. Alright it's late, later people, or person.
I think what is really going to suck today is not having Holly around. In case you don't know, she has moved away as of Aug. 25th. To make it even worse her first day on the floor at the hospital is, you guessed it, on my birthday....today. I don't know how this is all going to work out, she doesn't either. The only thing I really do know is that I still love her, will probably love her for a while, and I miss her everyday. Mo-Ka' is taking this pretty hard as well. The morning Holly left she just would sit there looking at me. I finally got in her face and told her "Hey, it wasn't my fault, don't blame me...." but she still looked a little pissed,
so I kicked her down a big Milk bone and went on with the day.
I think the hardest thing is coming home to a empty
house, and just not having her there all the
time (though most of the time she was sleeping).
People are also always asking me, Where is Holly? I have to say,
oh she moved away, then they give me the look. This look is like a little
pitty mixed with shock. Then there is the follow-up question of "What are you
guys going to do?" or "Why didn't you go with her?" So here are my answers: I don't
what we are going todo, and I didn't go cause I have businesses here, and she didn't want me togo (like I would anyway, but I never asked) The bottom line is it's gonna be really hard for us to be together now, and for the future. I will try to do what I can, shit all I can, but I think there is only so much I can do. I think we both know what is going to happen, but we don't really want to think that way. I definitly don't want to! Let me just say that I love her, she makes me be a better person when she is near me, and I simply just miss her. I think my biggest fear is gonna be gettin used to not having her around. We were inseperable for the last 2 and half years. I really hope she and I don't get used to not being with one another, but I guess that life, right.....right. Alright it's late, later people, or person.
posted by Rajytech at 3:54 AM
1 Comments:
Hey Raj, happy late birthday! No problem about not helping out with the TV, I had some family around to give me a hand. I think my shoulder was sore for a week, those Music Box dudes weren't kidding when they said it was a bitch to move. We had to use a dolly to get it up to my new place, I think I'll just buy one next time I have to take it somewhere. Yea I'm definately missing the tennis and chill sessions, I've only played tennis a couple times since I've been here. It sucks. Somehow I never set up email notices when I get comments on blogger so I just noticed your comment on there. You'll have to come hang sometime soon!
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